Just so you know.

unworthy of trust.

2010-05-14T21:26:00.001-07:00

Spm? lan ciao la. retrace your memory what you fucking said.

Life after spm.

2010-04-13T21:53:00.000-07:00

Hey ! life has been pretty boring and also kinda depressing after all that has happenned , all there is to do was to go out ,

planned to work but was to lazy , but on the other hand college will be starting pretty soon

which is like in a week . Will be doing my diploma in culinary arts at taylors lakeside.

Hoping that its gonna be fun , well i could say im looking forward to it. So , this few days hope to enjoy the last of my holidays by filling my time up with who knows what im going to do. Anyway recently went yum cha with andrew , fen leigh and larissa. Been long since i actually had met up with the 2 chicks and actually have the time to talk. Will be looking forward to go out with them agian :D here are some pics from that day.

Teo fen leigh and Larissa

Andrew , fen leigh and larissa

Me and larissa.

Mr Phang ching siang.

=|

2010-04-07T07:50:00.001-07:00

(Y)

2010-04-07T06:34:00.000-07:00

My intentions for not telling you who told me was to prevent any arguement revolving around you anymore , and you think that im doing this to help her , whats the point of me explaining i've got no rights to . Doing good never seem to be the right way to make things right.

the road ahead what it'll be?

2010-04-06T07:26:00.000-07:00

You're the first i ever got so close with , you gave me a different feeling , but now all thats left is this heavy load i feel in my heart , but it was worth it all as long as the decisions you made will bring you up , the hugs the time we hold hands and the 1st was with you maybe its not much but ill definitely remember all this , it will be a part of me for a long time till i am ever gonna put things down, whatever it is take care love you .

=)

2010-04-02T09:33:00.000-07:00

game over . good luck have fun. tc.

gg

2010-04-02T03:15:00.000-07:00

Nice one.

A peek.

2010-04-01T21:27:00.000-07:00

A glimpse of that sight will do , doesnt matter if its near or far.

landmine? fuck i care

2010-04-01T01:15:00.001-07:00

Im nothing of your expectation , im just another sore loser who doesnt know how to think for myself. If only i could be selfish but i dont know how to , im not of that kind.

A dream yet it is not.

2010-03-23T14:14:00.000-07:00

What this is , is a goal far beyond the reach of peasant like creature.

..

2010-03-17T05:08:00.000-07:00

Having those thoughts is what that's stopping you from the truth.

once ? twice ? never?

2010-02-28T23:54:00.000-08:00

For once when i thought i could get the one i love most , i guess i was wrong.

back at 1.

2010-02-27T23:38:00.000-08:00

A day as one would mean alot.

its not like a dream come true

2010-02-27T10:30:00.000-08:00

A step for that chance would mean a big change in my life.

back again.

2010-02-25T22:51:00.001-08:00

It has happen again , why does it have to?

plain rubbish.

2010-02-24T06:28:00.001-08:00

Im not fit to be the one to comfort you.

Its for you.

2010-02-20T08:47:00.000-08:00

1. Guys are more emotional than you think, if they loved you at one point, it'll take them a lot longer than you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they try.

2. Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

3. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

5. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're going for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

6. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

8. Guys don't care how gorgeous you are, if you're a bitch Goodbye.

13. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

15. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole hell of a lot.

16. No matter how much guys talk about butts and boobs, personality is key.

18. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

19. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

20. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

21. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

23. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

25. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

26. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

27. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

29. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

30. A guy would give his right nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

32. Not all guys are jerks. Just because ONE is a jackass doesn't mean he represents ALL of them.

37. When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

?

2010-02-13T18:31:00.000-08:00

Net wat heb ik aan deze kale hartverscheurende nieuws hebben op zo'n dag, alles wat ik ooit deed was de liefde je hele harte, maar ik eindigde als apart verspreid. Ik weet echt niet wat moet ik nu doen, maar ik denk niet dat ik zal hier stoppen. Ik zal nog proberen voor je, ik hou van je veel, zal ik wachten tot het einde van dit jaar, zou je denken dat ik ben gewoon een emotionele freak die alleen maar onzin dingen uit van verdriet, maar ik ben niet, wat jaar is, zou je denken dat ik ben gewoon een emotionele freak die alleen maar onzin dingen uit van verdriet, maar ik ben niet, wat ik zeg dat ik echt meen het, Sharlene ik hou van je, op Valentijnsdag je hebt me in tranen, en ik zelfs wakker in tranen rollen over mijn wangen. Sharlene, je bent wat ik schat de meeste, veel geluk je blijft in mij zolang ik leef.

Waiting silently.

2010-02-06T20:02:00.000-08:00

You should know that i would wait , but will you open up that chance for me?

Stonned!

2010-02-04T02:23:00.001-08:00

Hello!! this was on the 31st which was on andrew's bday,

decided to get andrew drunk that night ,

so we opened a bottle , and 4 of us which was andrew , yudesh ,teethan and me

drank at usj 16 park.

Dont really have much to say but enjoy the pics below ,

dont really have much anyway ciao!

Bday boy!

Sasau bro!

Desh!

The stars and the full moon that night reminded me how clear your image is in my mind.

tough luck.

2010-01-30T21:38:00.000-08:00

Jb , your luck was always as dark as a coal.

Harder than you know.

2010-01-27T01:34:00.001-08:00

guys can always make girls cry . But if a girl can make a guy cry , she must really mean alot to him .

The webs you weave.

2010-01-25T22:49:00.000-08:00

Yo , been a long time i posted something.

Nothing much been happening lately ,

not forgetting i've been really happy!

but have been sick , first was struck with slight fever,

and lost my voice for a period ,

and now am having cough and flu.

but somehow there is too much to think through ,

better not be paranoid right?

most probably will be going to pavilion this saturday to celebrate ni che phang ching siang bday,

anyway dont have anyhting else to say ,

ciao dudes!

Jamming?

2010-01-13T04:11:00.000-08:00

Shit dam , its been long since i update lol.

Dam lazy to think of writing anything out.

Life has been pretty boring lately,

others seem to be enjoying but im starting to hate life after SPM.

Maybe its cause i dont know how to find fun,

anyone care to help?

Few days ago , i followed desh, andrew,aiman and syidi for jamming

as usual they'll be jamming screamo songs.

Will update again soon if there is anything in mind. CIAO!!

A new chapter.

2009-12-31T21:52:00.000-08:00

Hey people,

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

time flies really fast huh? Didnt expect my highschool life to end just like that,

already missing it , but i guess going through the last year really changed me alot,

been meeting many new friends and i hope ill never lose contact with all the ones i know=), and I also met someone but sadly had to let it go due to reasons,

at times i do miss it.. but nothing can be done right?

wished the previous year didnt have to end just like that,

cant believe that I actually dont have to wear school uniforms already=D

Wonder how life would be this year?

better or will it be even worse?

btw went for countdown at sunway pyramid with andrew , cent and kar yan

met with the others there. saw plenty of friends there,

after countdown had to wait kinda long due to the heavy traffic in the car park,

headed to usj 16 yaya to chill awhile den friend bought us a few bottle of beer

after we drank headed home.

College life will be starting soon, feel really old thinking about it lol,

as for time being dont really have much plans for the free time i have

just gonna slack around and do nothing besides going out with friends.

Anyways hope you all have a great year ahead, may all go well with everything that is done,

good luck and god bless!

HAPPY NEW YEAR! 2010!

Prom!

2009-12-18T20:22:00.000-08:00

My chun Promdate

Hey people,

been a long time since i last updated,

was kinda lazy lol.

nicol dont kembang when you see the 1st pic.

anyways 2 days back was usj 12 prom

which was not really awesome but at least enjoyed a little

at the last part.

After prom had an afterparty of ourselves at the usj16 basketball,

andrew , cent , leon , prem , yudesh was with me that night.

Holidays has not been really fun , didnt do anything much.

will be enrolling for college for the 1st intake i guess,

hope college life will be much fun.

My Bros.

Me and Michelle=D

Me and desh

Tekshern, me, sherwin, ah fei

Andrew , Yudesh , Me

Zhi deng and me

Me and desmond

Andrew

Yudesh

Aicheh macam mafia

-.-

Pui hwa and yiva.

Pui hwa and me.

Our table.

Thanks for the great 'afterparty' bros!Ciao!

Sensation.

2009-12-08T01:07:00.001-08:00

Dudesssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

its like finally over!

SPM is done finally.

but i dont really seem to feel the joy of finishing school.

Its more like im gonna miss schooling alot.

i know college life is much tougher than this,

should be going out in awhile.

gonna go for a class party.

after that who knows what im gonna do.

will be looking for entertaintment from now!=D

sien..

2009-11-29T07:52:00.001-08:00

Bored....-.-

Narrowed eyed turtlessss!

2009-11-27T08:36:00.000-08:00

Hey everyone! sorry for the lack of updatess.

been lazy and busy cause im having exams.

only 3 papers left and i ffeel as if im not prepared=s

better start revising my work.

cant wait for spm to be done.

dont know what ill be off to do.

yesterday was out for moviess.

went to watch twilight with nicol , yiva, andrew, prem , and nic's brother.

others like jen onn, shian hong edric and zhi deng joined us.

the movie was not really that great.

had a rather dissapointing ending lol.

headed to tanjung after that around 1230 till aroound 1.15amthen went home.

didnt go anywhere today.

wanted to go out but didnt feel like it.

someone marah pulak =s

world's changing nowadays i guess.

some people just like to act smart trying to get their name good

tired of handling nonsense.

gtg. ciao bross

6 days left

2009-11-22T00:18:00.000-08:00

Hey People,
currently in andrew's hse studying.teaching him maths for the moment.
preparing for tomoro maths 1 and 2. hope it will be easy.
6 more days left and all will be done.
hope that fun will be easily found after.
as time prolong i feel more like differing my ns.
but at the same time i still wanna go.
just dont know why.
And somehow people are changing, some tend to grow some tend to stay as they are, some even tend to forget.
hope that the changes are for the better not for worse.
Anyway all the best for all the coming exams. Goodluck bros!

1 day down!

2009-11-18T01:13:00.000-08:00

Yo brosss and hoessssssssssss!

Already one day down=D

8 more days will be gone just in a bink of an eye

and hellooooo to funnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!

today bm was kinda easy so far so good.

though history was a little tough hoping that paper 2 will be easier tomoro,

gonna go read through history again later.

all the best tomoro=D

4 more days...

2009-11-13T20:30:00.000-08:00

Hey people! been studying alot so dont think gonna blog much.

Last thurday was at damansara for tuition with sherwin, rahul, mr.phang.

History is just plain boredom.

i wonder how those students get an A1 for their spm.

After tuition we had our dinner at around 10 at Ss 4 in some food court.

looks kinda like AC but this 1 is not as grand as AC though.

We headed back for at around 11.

On friday went to school cause we had to take our SPM slips.

Didnt do anything much in school.

after school went home study. Then later on at night around 10 went out to study and yum cha.

Went to meet up with nicol , yudesh and prem.

Its only 4 more days to Spm. This is seriously scary=s

Currently studying history right now. Seriously dam boring-.-

Till here then ciao!

Narrowed Eyed Turtle!

Rahul

Sherwin(sohai)

Mr Phang

The flood.

2009-11-11T05:19:00.000-08:00

Dudeeeeeeeeeeeesssssssssssssssssssssssss! have been pretty lazy to blog. haha.

Dont really have much in mind to blog. Having coming out of school at recess for the pass few days.

Have been playing blackjack with farhan, rahul tsi minn and have been earning a little cash.

Instead of studying we're doing all this bullshit=.=

Me and andrew have been to pyramid 2 times this week to check things out.

Most probably will be going again tomoro.

And also not forgetting we also went to see someone that is working so hard until half day oso so tired di haha. Saddening. Looks like after tomoro ill be flooding myself with only books.

Its only a week away to my major exams.

Hoping for all the luck to be by my side.

really will be needing it.

9 days of exams and ill be off looking for fun.

But for now its better to think about how much stress and pressure which is about to set on me. Anyways till here.. gotta go STUDYYYYYYY brossss.

The time of my life.

2009-11-03T03:43:00.000-08:00

Retard face

Yo! Felt its time to post something up cause its been really boring.

But still its doesnt seem to make a difference right? lol.

Feeling really tired. Just got back from tuition.

Anyway I skipped school today again. Along with rahul, sherwin and farhan.

Chilled at my hse , was suppose to study but ended watching tv and playing need for speed-.-

Later on when they left , i walked to taipan to have lunch at pizza hut alongside nicol , puihwa, yiva, ameline, kia siang and desh. For dunno what reason nicol was pissed at me and i feel sorry though. After nicol, yi va and kia siang left, we went to station as pui hwa wanted to find lewis to get a spare phone from him.

I left around 4 because i had chem and physics tuition which was really tiring.

Haihss its another 2 more weeks till my spm are here.. hoping i can cope with everyhting i need.

In another month my school life will be over, somehow i feel really depressed about it, thinking about the fun i had in my schooling days.

Wondering how college life would be like?

Sounds kind happening and fun but how would it be for me?

And not forgetting i ve got 3months of ns to go for. Hope it would be a memorable 1 for.

Till here den. will be skipping school again tomoro. Ciao !

Me and farhan

Rahul

Sherwin-.-

oOo

Aicheh like romantic ni

Happy Yet Disasterous day.

2009-10-28T04:48:00.000-07:00

Happy Bday Farhan!

Hey people. Was at friends hse today as it was his bday today. Was there since 11 till around 1. Andrew came and fetch me and then we picked tsiminn, ian, rahul, sherwin and tek shern up. Afifi , ashraf, feeza came later on. Reached his hse and waited for the mom to prepare all the food. And we had our lunch there at around 12. Hope he enjoyed the company we gave him and im sorry for the disaster that happened as stated at the title. Really sorry bro. Hope he enjoyed his day though. Only people who were at his hse knew what happened. Anyway gtg Happy birthday again. Will be looking for desh later on as his bday is tomoro so wanna go wish him at 12 and have some 'fun' with the fella. Ciao yo!

the bday boy farhan

Tsi minn, farhan, farhan's mom

Tek shern

feeza and rahul

feeza

feeza and me

sherwin

Mr. Phang

Afifi

Ashraf

Tsi minn was being camera shy

Ian and tek shern

Mr.Phang with his muka steam

The love birds for the day

=)/=(?

2009-10-27T01:50:00.001-07:00

Hey people its been a long time since i last blog. Been pretty lazy to blog. didnt have anything in mind. Came to blog today just so that it wont seem so dead. yesterdy skipped school and chilled at sherwin's hse. suppose to study but ended up watching a movie, Land Of the lost which was a pretty dumb movie. At around lunch andrew came and picked me up to have lunch with him. Then he came and chilled in my hse with somebody. Another 2 more weeks till exams starts. And i dont seem to be ready for it. hopefully ill be able to cope with everything im about to study. Later on will be going to farhan's hse awhile for his bday. Having a little eating session. And i hope 'she' is doing well with everything. Ciao bros!

Ian

Ian ass, sherwin, me

Sherwin, rahul

Unending hymms.

2009-10-21T00:07:00.000-07:00

Aicheh calming scenery.

Yo zo! its been few days since i last blogged. didnt know what to do as there arent any pics to support them. After that friday i thought everything would turn out bad. But it seems i got to uncover truths which cleared up somethings which made everything feel better. Didnt really do anything on the other days. basically just hanged out with desh andrew. and also not forgetting mc jian joining him for dinner for quite a few days. At least now i guess nothing much is gonna happen. Not really gonna have anything to do about this anymore. Only having around 1 and a half months left till everything is done. expected the support i wanted but its ok la. I wonder what i would be doing after my exams are over lol. Better start saving some cash now or else its gonna be a boring life later on. Hopes from now on everyone is gonna do well and no more troubles are gonna happen. Expected 'something' to happen today but wasted my time thinking they would come. currently dam bored now. only listening to my itunes. Till here then ciaoo

whatever makes you happy.

2009-10-16T19:34:00.000-07:00

You think that i have so much time to steal your friends from you? Its just a part of life that im going through to make friends. you re just being so childish to delete people as friends. You think this is a computer game? you think about whatever you said and done to me. What are those promises for? Why promise when they are not going to even exist from the start? you know that promise is a big word. I feel really naive for putting on so much hope. Many times i ve tried to cheat myself from the truth people has been saying but i dont listen to them. What do i get in return? I took care of you, gone through so many shits and what do i get? A sentence saying that Its good that we re being apart. wth is wrong with you? did i said i didnt wanna be friends with you? I went there to talk things out and you walk away on me. I admit i was rude. But you should be thankful that i didnt use harsh words on you. you should know that. And what are you trying to say thanks for showing me your 'love' today what is that? you dont even love me from the start and you expect me to show you more love today? dont you think i should not show it? you want me to move on and you re trying to say like that. and you better stop putting words in my mouth. I never said you disgust me. I never said it sucked being with you. Did i ever say that? you thik about it la. please stop being immature. think about this. I ve never thought of losing a friend and you want that to happen. Stop thinking that you re right all the time. You made a mistake of deleting me and all. Im not being happy like that. instead it got me thinking why are you like that? why showing your true colours now? arent you just doing the same as what the girl before did to me? You said that you ll not leave me and you even stress on that point that you ll not leave me. But you left and now we cant even have a bond of friendship. I put you through my prayers begging god to let you have a better life. I expected all this to happen but not this fast and not in this harsh way. Friends has been telling me to back off for good but why dont i listen? why am i so naive? Why do you have to do all this? but why am i just angry and not being like you? why i cant just erase everything? why? I loved you so much but what do i get? not even a spec of dirt from you. What ever you did wasnt even really sincere. Since you feel what you do is right go ahead continue doing it. You re just making every part of me break even more. All you need are you guy friends right? already said that even this little expectation will not come and it really is true. Delete all you want. erase me from your life if you thinks thats good. To me that act you re doing is making me really sad. So what if cant workout as lovers? why cant we be friends? Understand whatever im trying to say. go on ahead doing what you feel you happy with.

drowned by anger and sorrow.

2009-10-16T02:42:00.000-07:00

YO! had been going out alot last few days. couldnt stand the fact that i was studying but nothing much is going in due to the distractions im having in my mind. Yesterday went to starcafe and met up with kia siang and nicol together with leon and andrew. yudesh came later on. kiasiang and nicol left around 12 and we chilled till around 2 plus when we decided to get guitars and play at the park at usj 16. Played till around 4 and we headed back home. leon andrew and desh sleptover my hse cause it was already really late. but we practically didnt sleep and chat a little when we go a little emotional and talked bout many things. this morning dropped yudesh home and we went and have our breakfast. andrew dropped me to find pui hwa and ameline. then chilled at taipan till lunch time when andrew asked me to go have lunch with him. he wanted to go McD and i saw someone there. What got me pissed is the fact that 'she' acts as if as im just a passerby in her life. Even the mom was friendlier. It really disapoints me to know this. I dont know but im just feeling really PISSED and really SAD to know all thats happened. But like what they say whats done is done, no point regretting which i ve never did regret helping so much. Too bad im not appreaciated , as i know i did my part and im not feeeling wrong about it. So whatever it is you ve got your guy friendsss with you that you need as im not needed. But at least i know what you really are made of now. So who cares right now.

I keep a journal of memories
I'm feeling lonely, I can't breathe
I fall to pieces, I'm falling
Fell to pieces and I'm still falling

the situation....

2009-10-12T02:21:00.000-07:00

tsi minn

Ian

Farhan

Today i skipped school cause there wasnt any exam for me. went to pizza hut to study with a bunch of classmates. But i didnt really study cause i just came out to chill. Didnt wanna stay at home.Had some fun face warping each other faces but only saved 3 of it cause i forgot to save the others. lol. after that went to meet up with dinesh cause he wanted have lunch then went infront of school awhile cause he wanted to duno do waht there. and to the pmr-ers tomoro will be their last day of exam. missing those times when i was having my exams but now im facing my big exams. wish i was the one having my holidays after tomoro. so much thinking going on. head is gonna be filled with white hairs soon.

As for you , i dont know what you re thinking. What i feel we re not even being a friend. Im just like a passer by to you. I know plenty of things which is just gonna be kept within myself. Suit yourself with whatever you re doing. If you think that 'they' are all you need im fine by it. After all i bet you ll do whatever you need just to be close to them. I dont know who else i can turn to. Dont even know who to trust. not even myself because i dont know whatever im doing is right or wrong. If only i could know what god's plan for us are. Right now really i dont feel even a piece of appreaciation from you. I dont even expect much but even that little expectation didnt come true. I dunno what else to say. Anyway best of luck in everything.i hope you know whats best for you.and study hard. Ciao.

You brought me to my knees thinking...

2009-10-10T22:07:00.000-07:00

Kia siang,leon, me, kok weng,prem

Yo! went to church this morning , was freaking sleepy cause only had 4 hours of sleep. but amazing thing is i wasnt feeling sleepy at all , maybe its cause of the speech the priest gave. Part of his speech got through me but i wonder what use will come of it in the future though. Been hearing lots of things , knowing many people is getting hurt from it what more bout me? I wonder do people notice bout it. But i guess it doesnt matter much though afterall whatever i do wont matter. So backing off would be the best i guess. Although it hurts but nothing else can be done. Hoping for everything to go back to normal as soon as possible. Ciao!

Escape the Fate Something Lyrics:
So now you're running
it's hard to see clearly
When I make you angry
you're stuck in the past
And now you're screaming
So can you forgive me
I've treated you badly
But I am still here

Sometimes I wonder
Why I'm still waiting
Sometimes I'm shaking
that's how you make me
Sometimes I question why I'm still here
Sometimes I think I'm going crazy

Can you help me understand?

And now you wish that you meant something
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
And now you wish that you met someone
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
Something to somebody else
Something to somebody else

You look at me through clouded eyes
I know you see through my lies
See the sky, see the stars
All of this could be ours
Out of sight, out of mind
we've been through this a thousand times
Turn your back and then you make me feel so crazy

Can you help me understand?

And now you wish that you meant something
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
And now you wish that you met someone
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else

You know I would wait for ever
Yes I would wait (I would wait)
You know I would wait forever
Yes I would wait

And now you wish that you meant something
And now you wish that you meant
Something to somebody else
And now you wish that you met someone
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
And I'm the one that should mean something
But still you wish that you meant something to somebody else
Something to somebody else
Something to somebody else

Something.

2009-10-09T21:27:00.000-07:00

Me sharlene nicol leon

Me nicol prem

Was feeling dam bored so decided to blog. Yesterday had some prayers at home then afterthat mc called to go ac but didnt had the transport and didnt feel like going but headed to usj 11 padang instead. Went to see friends playing basketball then after that yum cha awhile at tejas till around 11.30. Den andrew called and went to melur awhile. As for today no plans yet so far. Freaking bored at home without any lunch. Heard there is gonna be a prom which gonna be organised by some usj 12 student. Thought of going with 'someone' but dont think will be able cause i guess i know the answer.if only things could go the way i want it. I ve a feeling this is such a boring blog lol. Its so unlike me to do such things. Anyone with any plans today? freaking bored here. The only thing i ve been doing is study , wishing that spm could be over as fast as possible. And im wanting a miracle to happen and shall see if it comes. till here ciao bros!

All the time I spend alone now won't comfort me S<3

stuck in that particular part of my head.

A boring sight.

2009-10-08T00:56:00.001-07:00

me and larissa

Me and nicol.

ME.

Adui.. How i wish everything could go my way though..Just hoping to get that 1 miracle could maybe even change everyting. Problems have been piling up like crazy but its slowly being solved slowly. Knowing ill be sitting for my big exams in about 1 month and im still getting myself distracted by so many things. But i know ill do my best cause i have to prove i can do well to 'someone'. Anyway decided i would go to school today cause i skipped the last 2 days. It was freaking boring in school i slept through out the whole day in school. Tomoro wont be going to school again cause its a waste of time surely. Most probably will be going galavanting with dont know who. lol. Btw goodluck to all the pmr candidates and to the form 4's hoping that they will do well. i dont really have much to write so till here den, ciao!

S ♥ ?

Great night.

2009-10-03T09:54:00.001-07:00

Helooo people! just came back from tanjung. Before that had dinner in Prime , Le Meridian at KL. Food was good but the price was really wonderful. and not forgetting i did not post that hello kitty up. back to the night. Food was really expensive. 6 of us ate and the bill came to around 950++ it was really shocking but lucky aunt had vouchers thats why we decided to go there. Later on went to tanjung to meet up with sharlene , yash , ameline. Nicol kiasiang and brenda mak was also there but they were sitting another table due to some reasons. But finally something happened and the 'war' between sharlene and nicol finnaly ended. its was a beautiful sight to see haha. they were hugging and all. Glad that things workout for both of them. especially her she seems much better now i guess. Left tanjung around 12.30. Kia siang was kind enough to fetch us all home. and thats about today. Really happy for those 2 haha. anyway Goodnight. sorry cause there are no pics or anything. dont really take much pics.

Cinta mendalam untuk mu menyebabkan saya menahan penderitaan ini.S<3!

Hello Kitty Is My Baby !

2009-10-03T09:54:00.000-07:00

HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII !!

MY NAME IS JOSHIE & IM SOOO IN LOVE WITH HELLO KITTY. * kawaiii nerhzXzXxzZz* HELLO KITTY IS MY DREAM DATE, I WOULD DIE TO DATE HELLO KITTY IF ONLY HELLO KITTY EXISTS IN REALITY.

HAHAHAHAHHA ( !!!!!!! )

xoxo, JOSHUABENJAMIN.

Chosen path.

2009-10-01T18:09:00.000-07:00

I just dont understand what you re trying to do. Why desert yourself from me? Im trying to be your friend but you? you asked me to be your close friend and now what? you think by doing this only you re hurt? so many people around you are concerned about you. They re even more hurt with things you re doing right now. Im not trying to avoid you instead im just giving you the time to think what you want to do. I tried talking to you but the way you talk is as if im bothering you. Im trying to be selfish to myself by not caring about you but i cant. I keep thinking bout you, seeing you like this makes me worried and wanna care more bout you. I really hope that our friendship wont be lost. I dont give a damn whether ill be with you or not , i just wanna be a friend of yours and i hope you dont desert yourself from me. I hope that you chose the right path. Sorry if im annoying you.

New month?

2009-10-01T00:13:00.001-07:00

What is this feeling?

Well a new month is here. Congrats to the bunnies as i guess they've talk things out with each other. Sounds like they would be having a better month in october. As for me i feel as if nothing is changing. Its still the same old days for me to go by. Maybe its meant to be this way. Im really trying my best to forget her but im just so weak i cant do it. I just dont know why but i really care alot. Whatever it is i hope she is happy with the path she chose. hope she finds the guy she truly wants afterall im not her choice of love which i hope could change but it will never happen right. hope that everything is changing for her and goodluck with whatever you do as i hope we still remain close but i dont know whether that could happen. As for now i hope she still tells me things but as whats happening right now i dont think its ever happening. Anyway till next time.. dont have to the mood to say anything else or rather i have nothing else in mind yet. Goodluck S!<3

I shouldn't love you but i want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but i can't move
I can't look away

And i dont know how to be fine when i'm not
Cause i don't know how to make the feelings stop

Just so you know
This feelings takin control
Of me and i can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let him win now
Though you should know
I've tryed my best to let go of you
But i don't want to
I just gutta say it all before you go
Just so you know

It's gettin hard to
Be around you
Theres so much i can't say
And do you want me to hide the feelings
And look away

And i dont know how to be fine when i'm not
Cause i don't know how to make the feelings stop

Just so you know
This feelings takin control
Of me and i can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let him win now
Though you should know
I've tryed my best to let go of you
But i don't want to
I just gutta say it all before you go
Just so you know

This emptyness is killin me
I'm wonderin why i've waited so long
Lookin back i realize it was always there to be spoken
Now i'm waitin here
Been waitin here

Just so you know
This feelings takin control
Of me and i can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let him win now
Though you should know
I've tryed my best to let go of you
But i don't want to
I just gutta say it all before you go
Just so you know

Shattered.

2009-09-29T20:55:00.000-07:00

sharlene and me. =)

Hey people. Lately have been through much much problems. Been really stressed up with everything. apart from that i ve got really hurt from it. I really feel like going somewhere alone just to chill myself with a drink or two. I just dont know why but i cant move on. I really am trying very hard. But somehow there's just something which is keeping me attached to it. I was given so much hope but the hope was also taken away by the same person. I feel so dam confused and lost but i guess im not gonna show it out. Friends have been really helping me alot but sometimes im just too stubborn to listen to them till something has finally happen. No matter what i did i never did regret though i know 'she' didnt really mean to do it. Afterall i cant force the love out her for me only. I guess for now i dont really have much to say. Look forward to the next post alright? ciao

Hello world.

2009-09-29T06:29:00.000-07:00

Helloooooooo! i dont know what to blog about though , im new here. btw im joshua. Many people call me joshiee though haha. well i didnt know what to post till someone asked me to do it. well till here den. hope ill be knowing much more bout this blogging thing>< im a real slow learner btw haha. till here.